The Moment.

I have had a lot of embarrassing moments in my life, as all of us normal humans have.  Now, I could talk about the time I got pantsed at a 6th grade party, or the time I feel in front of my whole class and spilled hot chocolate all in front of me, but I wanted to dig deeper.  This embarrassing moment happened with a boy that I had somewhat of a previous relationship with.  I knew he had been in love with me since junior year of high school.  When senior year rolled around, I confessed my likings for him too.  Then, I went on spring break and had somewhat of a freak out.  I was not ready for a relationship, I was not ready for someone to love me, I did not even know if I could give this boy what he wanted to give me.  So when I came back from break, I broke his heart.  We remained friends even though it was awkward for a while.  We still went to prom together and of course I messed it up.  About a month after, I realized I really did like this boy and wanted to not only make amends, but confess to him how I felt.  I somehow built up the courage to pull him aside at a friends house and once again played with his heart.  But this time, I felt so embarrassed.  This was not the kind of funny embarrassment either.  He had told me how I broke his heart and that it had been since junior year that he had liked me and that he could never do that to himself again, that I could never do that to him again, and he walked away.  I was so embarrassed at that moment at my actions and what I had done to this wonderful person.  If I could take it all back, I would.  I'm sure he now has commitment issues, as do I.  I am embarrassed for letting myself do that.  If I could take the whole thing back, I would.

-Photobucket, not my own drawing, but I really liked it.